In the face of Vandelin's evident desire for him, Kit's self-consciousness does indeed begin to slip away, and with a subdued sigh he feels more freedom to indulge in his own. He answers that kiss hungrily and buries his fingers in Vandelin's hair, following him willingly as he's led to the bed.
No; he won't run again. Perhaps it's only his desire that gives him this conviction right now, but the shared heat and need created by their intimacy holds more in it than lust. Kit wants this closeness--even as it frightens him.
It quickly becomes clear to him what Vandelin has in mind as he loosens all the buttons on his shirt and kisses a warm path down his chest and stomach. Breath catching, he drops one hand from his lover's hair to work at the clasps on his trousers.
He isn't used to this craving, this insatiate memory of the taste of someone else's skin, this need for more and more and more of another person. Nobody in Hasmal had been worth that kind of space in his mind. Even Travis had been an acquired taste. But he remembers Kit's scars already, remembers the dusting of silverblack hair under his fingertips, remembers the weight of him in his hand and against his tongue, and the reality is so very much better.
He reaches forward to help Kit work, his own hands uncharacteristically hurried, and forces patience as he takes him in hand to stroke him.
That's Kit's intelligent response when Vandelin takes hold of him, fingers reflexively tightening in his hair before he remembers himself and loosens them. He can't stop the subtle shift forward his hips make--and why should he? This is what they both want.
He shrugs his shirt from his broad shoulders and abandons it to fall to the floor. His hand, now free, shifts to his lover's cheek to trace his high cheek bones, follow his jaw, stroke across his lower lip. "I'm crap with words, salroka," he manages with a breathless smile, a winded laugh that catches on a soft moan. Oh. "I just wanted to hold you--"
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No; he won't run again. Perhaps it's only his desire that gives him this conviction right now, but the shared heat and need created by their intimacy holds more in it than lust. Kit wants this closeness--even as it frightens him.
It quickly becomes clear to him what Vandelin has in mind as he loosens all the buttons on his shirt and kisses a warm path down his chest and stomach. Breath catching, he drops one hand from his lover's hair to work at the clasps on his trousers.
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He reaches forward to help Kit work, his own hands uncharacteristically hurried, and forces patience as he takes him in hand to stroke him.
"Tell me," he murmurs, "how you missed me."
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That's Kit's intelligent response when Vandelin takes hold of him, fingers reflexively tightening in his hair before he remembers himself and loosens them. He can't stop the subtle shift forward his hips make--and why should he? This is what they both want.
He shrugs his shirt from his broad shoulders and abandons it to fall to the floor. His hand, now free, shifts to his lover's cheek to trace his high cheek bones, follow his jaw, stroke across his lower lip. "I'm crap with words, salroka," he manages with a breathless smile, a winded laugh that catches on a soft moan. Oh. "I just wanted to hold you--"
Well. Maybe a little more than just hold.