It isn't-- [a gesture, he'd say, but now that he's thinking of it-- It wasn't truly about helping Casimir, simply assuaging his own guilt in the most dramatic way possible. Yes, he'd a duty to prevent further harm to his friend--to any of the Tranquil--but this...

He's done stupid things in the grips of emotion before but this is another order entirely. The realization keeps him quiet for a long time.]

We don't, really--have a solution yet. Only the barest hint of something.

Not enough to throw my life away on, and abandon you and everyone else who's counting on me.