[It's always been a matter of listening--listening and hearing what was said. Myr's track record on that is far from perfect but--
The loss of one sense sharpens the others; losing Vandelin put an edge on keen-set hunger for the only blood family he still had. It makes him attentive now, struggling as he is to attend to what's said through the fog of inebriation.
(Talk of falling in love very nearly takes him out of the flow of the words. Distraction creeps in in the memory of a stolen touch between sparring bouts, of desire-demon dreams. Still not an option, something whispers; he lays the thought gently aside along with the self-admission embedded in it.)
It isn't comfortable to be reminded they shouldn't've been so fortunate. It isn't meant to be comfortable; it twists in his gut and makes him hunch his shoulders as if he could fend off the truth by doing so. We deserve to have families.
How could he deny anyone else the gift they'd been given, all undeserving?]
You do, [because maybe I did deserve this,] we do.
You're right. You are--it has to be better. It shouldn't be done at all if it can't be better.
I'm s, sorry Van. I am--for the whole fucking mess this is. That you had to go so far for something we should've--we should've had all along. If things were right or--if they were right or just.
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The loss of one sense sharpens the others; losing Vandelin put an edge on keen-set hunger for the only blood family he still had. It makes him attentive now, struggling as he is to attend to what's said through the fog of inebriation.
(Talk of falling in love very nearly takes him out of the flow of the words. Distraction creeps in in the memory of a stolen touch between sparring bouts, of desire-demon dreams. Still not an option, something whispers; he lays the thought gently aside along with the self-admission embedded in it.)
It isn't comfortable to be reminded they shouldn't've been so fortunate. It isn't meant to be comfortable; it twists in his gut and makes him hunch his shoulders as if he could fend off the truth by doing so. We deserve to have families.
How could he deny anyone else the gift they'd been given, all undeserving?]
You do, [because maybe I did deserve this,] we do.
You're right. You are--it has to be better. It shouldn't be done at all if it can't be better.
I'm s, sorry Van. I am--for the whole fucking mess this is. That you had to go so far for something we should've--we should've had all along. If things were right or--if they were right or just.