Yeah. [There's no arguing with the truth.] You'd try, though--try'n show Him you could do a better job of it. [No malice behind the words--just a forlorn affection.
He pours himself another drink. Hopefully it's the posca, but at this point he's past caring much.] Wanted you to be be safe and--and happy. But nobody's ever safe and you can't, you can't make them be, and you weren't happy, I know.
I just thought--things m, might get better, if I were just good enough. Prayed hard enough--things would change, inside and outside the Circles and you'd be, you'd be all right.
But they didn't and you weren't and things got worse and you left and everyone blamed you for what happened to me and-- I thought you'd die out there and I'd never, never see you again, [and then he interrupts himself with another of those awful halfway noises,] except I can't now anyway but you know. You know.
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He pours himself another drink. Hopefully it's the posca, but at this point he's past caring much.] Wanted you to be be safe and--and happy. But nobody's ever safe and you can't, you can't make them be, and you weren't happy, I know.
I just thought--things m, might get better, if I were just good enough. Prayed hard enough--things would change, inside and outside the Circles and you'd be, you'd be all right.
But they didn't and you weren't and things got worse and you left and everyone blamed you for what happened to me and-- I thought you'd die out there and I'd never, never see you again, [and then he interrupts himself with another of those awful halfway noises,] except I can't now anyway but you know. You know.